Who would enjoy reflecting under the influence of what others say?
Can I make reflection a habit to my own lifestyle, so that the r-action doesn't just surface each time I am criticised? Keep a journal, write a diary, have booked slots of days aside to think hard. If reflection becomes a habit, perhaps it becomes less negative.
Since when is reflection anything bad, at all? But still, we are all so lazy to do it.
Does it also mean it is a way to distrust yourself? Because when you reflect about what you did, you have to step out of all of yourself, and see yourself in third person. That's when you, though now a third person, has doubts about yourself.
It's hard to step back - or step out of the third person.
Just be yourself, only how you see yourself matters the most, believe in yourself, if there's anyone else who can trust you it's yourself and it goes on... The idea that others didn't matter and only your view is significant.
Really, I doubt anyone who says that really knew what it meant.
No, I'm also not doubting the importance of your own idea of yourself. But I'm just beginning to feel that everyone has less faith as to what they say - especially words like these - which seemed like full of value, but lack of thought process.
Then, I'd think, do I believe what I say?
Trying not to realize that reflecting = doubting. Reflection is a balance. Because beauty isn't something you see in a mirror, and neither is ugly. You see both, you see either. It's just hard to balance - as always.
I wish to embark on a journal writing and reflection about myself, so the thoughts in my head doesn't drag me - but it continues to fold into more layers of ideas, perspectives and refracted thinkings. Here, book, or what?
I'm lazy again, but I can't wait to change I can't wait to be different. But I will always be a little less diligent than my mind would imagined.
End; Takes time, we'll see :)