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War and Beauty

Tuesday, September 27, 2011 ( 7:30 PM )

the story in the drama has 3 characters.

the reality in my drama has 3 friends.

1: I'll take no effort to hide my dejection, and only time I will do so is when faced under authority, pressure or insignificant others. I had to learn the hardest pieces of life in one shot and that triggered me to remove the knife from my back and harpoon it against others, to regain what I have once lost. But I am not heartless. I am grey.

2: I gather the most experiences and spend my time thinking the most, alone. Planning, strategising and interpreting things: I take pride in them and these are the weapons I possess to tackle against those who have lost me my treasure. I look too nice to be true. But I still have conscience. I am purple.

3. I think least. Yet, I'm not stupid for I can create destruction no one can save - once my button is pushed. Cheerful is my staple mood, but I also question its purpose as an image or it is as genuine. I have all sorts of emotions flying across. But I just want somebody to friend. I am orange.

War and Beauty.

End; you two/too should watch it

Absence

Wednesday, September 21, 2011 ( 9:57 PM )

It is definitely missing. Something is definitely missing.
Yet, whatever That is missing didn't mean it had once been around or it had been there.
To me, it was never around nor was it here before - I just pretended it has always been around or it has always been present.
Alas, the day doesn't exist without the night while black cannot be seen without the appearance of white.
Then how can I say something is definitely missing without it's attendance in the first place?
Beneath the above cliche, I say I do not have It but I am only aware of my lack because It resides itself in many others.

I am missing what others have.

'Having it all along' was a pretence I have become used to - so used to an extent I began to believe it's genuineness.
Something is definitely missing because I came to realize it's absence, rather than it's disappearance.

End; Missing does not mean disappearing.

Balancing

Tuesday, September 06, 2011 ( 12:32 AM )

Prepare: myself for some imbalance that will be coming up soon enough. But as with many other shocks and surprises, you always wish you are more prepared.

In case: I be squashed by the tremendous effort of feeling left out, forgotten or neglected. I know who's good at it, but so am I - in one way or the other. Perhaps that's why I can withstand the pressure.

Trying to: strike the balance that can last us for as long as we can. but as both of us would agree - how can a relationship be lasting?

Taking: a step at a time, but keeping in mind how much we really did, do and will care for each other.

End; Thinking of this chinese quote.

Night Lights

Sunday, September 04, 2011 ( 10:50 PM )

Took a spontaneous trip down to Night Festival 2011's Night Lights! Just thought I might show some pictures here :)

Well, thought of blogging this because of the 'way' the family visited these 8 installations. It's just how amazing we spontaneously decided to go after dinner, and right before we leave, we quarelled and gave each other faces. And we came back to laughter in the car again. Then the 3 of them got tired, and I got quite angry because after all they were the ones who cajoled me here in the first place! And... laughters on the car again - till back at home.

Hehe, just how did we do that?

And look! I found my box at the exhibit at NMS, so happy when I did! Can't find Seah's or Toh's though :(

End; I have a family to love.