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Hakuna Matata

Wednesday, March 30, 2011 ( 12:38 AM )

Messed up my room with an intention to re-arrange. Things.
Just packed everything up! Everything back up into it's original positions.
Because maybe it's not time for a change yet.

But it feels great to be in a neater environment again. The previous week had been great and had been foul; but it got me thinking so fucking much I can explode. Gaboom!

Had been on a journey of social withdrawal (ahem, as mentioned in my previous post) which took a toll on my academic results. Resolved the issues and went on a spiritual vacation or rather, as my lecturer would describe, "Yikai's back from the Moon!" So all was well. But lately, the same feeling was back, hungry for more haunting.

It was all right :) I made myself go out and hang out with friends and classmates to keep those haunting thoughts away and it worked great. So it wasn't that bad! Thanks, friends.

And the last week, got me thinking about friends, relationships, beyond friends, theatre and my life; and all. I REALLY GOTTA TAKE LIFE EASIER. So let's stop pondering for now yep!

And I took a photo for what my friend says was a sign from God. (But I'm Buddhist, so maybe it was from Guan Yin Ma).

Hey dear, everything will be all right; we will all be :)

End; Let's lead a life called Hakuna Matata.

3.67

Tuesday, March 22, 2011 ( 10:40 PM )

3.67

Yes, got my results!

3.67 for the boy who barely worked hard this semester. Now, before you start thinking I'm gonna rant and be all whinny-ly guilty of my lack of effort - I'm not; I don't whine please.

3.67, to be honest, is not my standard. (Yep, so what if I'm cocky?) It is the lowest I had in 2 years. What bothers me most is the risk of slipping off the roll and the chance to fall below another benchmark. I never considered that, actually; but now the truth hits you like a... tsunami.

Even more so, I never realized that it would have taken a toll on me, this seriously - this academically seriously. A month or 2 back, I've been down and withdrawn from the all the best things in life because of really personal issues. I was never able to gauge the severity of my own social withdrawal, until a lecturer came and asked the golden question 'are you all right?' And now, even more apparent is the slip in my results that shouts in my face "you were NOT all right!"

I am not entirely surprised by my own results, and in fact, quite thankful I managed something still considered 'above average'. Yet, one can't help to feel regretful for the effort that was never sacrificed during the assessment periods. Too caught up in the world of dejection. I just didn't realized this severity.

Hey, but all is done and no point dwelling over (pukes) academic subjects. Not worth. And at the very least, I did put in my best. Was not in the best state of mind to hit the mark for every assessment, but hey, I really did push the most ability out of me! Haha, thinking back, I did miss The Rocky Horror's show after I surrendered 2 days to distractions and thoughts right?

End; I'm glad I did my best.

Exit

Sunday, March 20, 2011 ( 11:40 PM )

This toughest period of time I've just walked out,
has somehow found it's way back;
hungry for more haunting.

Please drain away this toughest memory.

End; But don't worry, haha, I'm all right :)

I only wish I can be more prepared

Saturday, March 19, 2011 ( 8:36 PM )

I think

Sensitivty is no longer a trait I'm sure of myself;
Neither is tact a proud strength of mine.

I'm really still trying to get to know this person I always thought I knew for the past 18 years. But so many circumstances have changed my concept about him or me; and these are the cause, and effect, of my own senseless nature.

End; I only wish I can be more prepared.

There is something...

Tuesday, March 15, 2011 ( 7:55 PM )

You know, sometimes - just sometimes - you simply don't know where to go; and who to face.

Titled: Haha

Because
There is something...

I want to say but I haven't, because I cannot bear to let us end.

I want to do but I haven't, because I fear the unbearable silence we will hear.

I want to ask but I haven't, because I just... don't know how to!

I want to join but I haven't, simply because I really have no money.

I really want to buy... and I did!

So maybe. It's time to complete the rest of the haven'ts. Leave less regrets; 遗憾? Then can you or you or you bear what with what I'm afraid of? You know, just so I can... move on!

End; Maybe I should throw a dice?

To be with you

Tuesday, March 08, 2011 ( 1:15 AM )

Listen to this.

A broken heart can't be that bad

When it's through;
it's through
Fate will twist the both of you

Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants
to be with you
Deep inside;
I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next

To be with you

Thank you to the girl with the nicest eyes, for sharing this cornball song :)

End; Already next in line?

I hurt myself on the abs

Sunday, March 06, 2011 ( 12:37 AM )

I hurt myself on the abs while learning diving.

An awesome day at Bukit Pangjang - a place where nobody lives.

Started the day off with awesome Macs breakfast with the first soul who resides in Bkt Panjang. Made me realized: macs really expensive these days! Really! Why the hell? Spent $7 on breakfast, not to forget it was only a single meal. Sigh, cheeseburgers and and egg mcmuffins are burning my pocket!

SO. I was supposed to meet my class at Hazel Park Condo. I took around... say, 5 years? to find that place. Only because... doesn't any single soul exist in Bkt Panjang?! It really is 鸟不生蛋的地方! I wanted to ask for directions and at the same time looking for a dustbin to throw my iced milo - and I could find neither! But still, amazed by my own directional capability, I found the main entrance of...

Hazel Park Condo, where I met the second soul, Zhan, who resides in Bkt Panjang, and the rest of the class.

The purpose for the day was to celebrate Zheng's 19th bday!!

Went downstairs to swim (sorry I was late, everyone!) and oh. my. god. the poolSSS were damn awesome, but seriously, why would one condo need so many pools?

Chen tried to learn swimming basics, while some of us such as Li, myself and Muhammad tried to learn diving - all from Coach Lin! Just you watch people, just you watch, I will master the art of it. The laugh of the day might be Muhammad, me and Zheng trying to kick off to see who reach the furthest. But we gave up on that because we just couldn't decide which is the right way to kick. Haha! Ok not so funny...

Fought for the shower at Zhan's home with other 12 people (urgh). Had pizza! Watched movies on dvd. (Shit, I feel I'm starting to find recounting a day's event boring)

After lazing aroud and watching Shrek 4, everyone on the sofa bed started touching each other and snogging around. We had the time of our lives making out with one another, and that made the day so eventful and memorable. Muhammad even went to the extend of groping Chen's butt, I mean... youngsters nowadays~ Zhuang even did a sexy dance on the sofa - you have never seen her wilder than that!

You believed?

Then took the train home and we lived happily ever after. I think I sound bored. And the following is the proudest photo I took of the day! Ok ok, I'm not being sarcastic, the photo is really quite nice technically and aesthetically, isn't it?

PS/ this is the one without the pimples ok... shhhh...

End; We are all getting older.

IWANTTOHOLDYOURHAND

Wednesday, March 02, 2011 ( 11:42 AM )

IWAN

TTOH

OLDYOURHAND。

End; I think you won't understand.