yikai, chng
18/M
24th Sept
ncps, nchs, sp
applied drama and psychology
Guess who's back.
Contemplation; Hesitation.
Yours truly is back, strong and feisty.
Welcome.
So okay, maybe - just maybe - I will really come back for public blogging. Well, I haven't exactly withdrew myself from blogging. I'm really still updating my personal, private, darkest (haha yea literally dark blog skin) blog. Gasp! Yikai, Seriously? Uh-huh~ I know you are shock because I told you I will delete it, but what's the point? Why would anyone throw away a diary. Eh, new blog skin some more leh.
Okay, I'm back blogging here with a purpose. I have a lot of thoughts and I want to put them somewhere aside from my amygdala or hipppocampus because the neurotransmitters can get quite screwed up sometimes.
I remember... During this TIE rehearsal, I could finally accessed blogger.com using my com after many failures at home and I was excited to come back here blogging! I was... kind of overwhelmed, as I remembered. Because at that point of my life, I was blogging furiously in my quiet wordpress.com and I just thought: how could I have let 'blogging' turn into such an act of depression; instead of a recount for my daily events.
Blogging was really fun. So I'm back!
Anyway, I realized my previous blogging style had been way toooooo mindful about the readers! Thus, I'm setting rules (haha no la, just some mental reminders) to my writing style this time.
- I will be using ambiguity and anonymity. Readers, you will be anticipating words like 'you', 'he' or 'she'. Most times, I will probably use words that suggest the person as mentioned but I will not use real names, so maybe names like ALee or Chen or Long or HX. This is so I can feel like I'm a column writer! Okay okay, actually, these initials will be understood but only by him/herself and the people around. Well ok, it just gives me more freedom, ok?
- I don't care about readers anymore. I'm sorry! But this time I'm clear, I'm writing for the sake of myself. So, apologies first. There might be occasions where I will write something you have no idea what I'm talking about, well you can ask me, but I will no longer attempt to write coherently for the audience's sake. But yep, as friends, I will always answer your question. unless otherwise stated.
- I suddenly don't feel like blogging again.
- I can't decide what I want to blog about. Daily events? Thoughts? Lyrics? Contemplation. Well, everything!
- Uhm, I'm getting really bored.
- Oh and. Unlike the previous postS, I think I've changed to a much less cheerful person. Haha! So if you read these now and read back, you're gonna experience a much more youthful, nonsensical author in the old posts. In contrary, now when you read these current posts, you may or may not find it 'emo' and possibly BORING but I think I'm much less optimistic now - it's no longer one of the adjectives I use to describe myself! Maybe it's just an adolescent phase of emotional disturbance I'm facing - which should end in about 6 months time! I'll grow out of it, can't wait! Ha!
- I'd probably post only 2 posts MAX per week I guess?Well, sit back and enjoy reading my deepest thoughts, my dearest friends.
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