Quaintly True

Y i K a i

Studying for goodness sake

Monday, September 15, 2008 ( 7:50 PM )

Oh well, since everyone's talking about school's happening today, i'll join in too. erm where to start.

kk, can you see the picture above. yes, those were common test 1 2008, mid-year 2008 and prelim 2008 timetables. Basically the major exams/tests I had this year. It was a real struggle for mid-yr, as much as I could rmb, I'd began much early (with the chemistry topics). Nevertheless, my chemistry and physics suffered drastically. It was a terrifying D7(chem) & a C5 for physics. What followed was many of us in a dilemma of whether to drop to combined sc. I could even remember vividly when me, Ruiqi & Mich, talking to Mr Tien. And the next day, only Mich and I prepared the letter, while Ruiqi told us she decided to strive on. Then, after the june holidays, Yixuan, Van, Mich and I were taken aback when they told us we were encouraged not to drop. Yes, right after we've missed the whole June holiday Pure Sciences lessons. Don't you think it's horrifyingly stupid to ask us to go back to Pure?

So, I continued to remain in combined science. When I handed him the letter, Mr Goh gave me a constipated look and asked, "真的吗？" But before I could really answer, he said something like “反正不 drop 你也不会好好读。”Insulting, I thought. But after this prelims, I suddenly came to realise, perhaps he was right. Perhaps it was really my way of running away from reality and pressure. Perhaps I just want to slack. Perhaps I just didn't want to hang on to something which might just not give me an A1.

I still don't know if I'd made the prudent decision. I definitely hoped I did, well, who doesn't? And anyway, Mr Tien told Mich and I that we won't regret if we dropped. Well, I felt really relieved each time I hear the Pures had to stayback or do extra work. However, I thought at least their hard work will really pay off, but for Humans subject, my Distinctions are always wavering. There's A, B and C. There's never a confirmed result, and each time I still have to worry so much. It probably isn't worthwhile, or is it?

After looking back into the past academically, let's talk about the present. Today was devastating for some people, but whatever I expected came true. Hmm, maybe Physics not, cause I thought it would be fairly well done, but it ended up the worst script I got back today.

But why are we doing all these- fighting with your classmates and looking down at yourself for not doing well enough?
Almost everyone's blog is talking about this type of questions like why are we going through all these pressures. Clear enough, it's for the future la. As always, right? It's getting really tiring for many, not excluding me, but it's the only drive for us! Gain your social status now because, no one's going to care about you when you're left behind.

Harsh, but true. =)

-THE END-